It has been ages since I last visited this place to talk about or pour out things. There were a few changes that happen. The happiest being that I lost weight and able to fit to a size S. Other news to share, Baby Arrian has started school at the workplace. He is adapting well to the new changes. The helper is going home. That was another nightmare. For people like me and hubster who generally live our lives per day without much planning of the day's event even though I only do proper planning in terms of financial and the future of the children, It was tiring and horrendous having to deal and manage another person especially one whom seem to have so much problem and does not really help much around the house. She may say that she has to look after 4 children but then again only Arrian requires her attention. It was sad how it ended but i guess some things are meant to be. I hope she does not do what she does here over at the other house she is going to work in. It was tiring having to always listen to complain about her work and her work attitude. I believe I have been a good employer. However, let's save that for another day.
It is end of the year. Currently I am taking the K2s. huge change from the n2s. i have to really prep myself and the class so that I am ready for the upcoming May licensing. I have been through two cycle of sparks even though not directly involved but was involved in the preparation. It was tiring and mentally exhausting. I figured out my personality and in a way figured out what i need to work on. I need to be more detailed instead of always seeing the big pictures. I had two shouting match with colleagues (not proud of it thou). A lot of changes that i can't seem to keep track as much as I want. The children year end results were not what we have expected. Disappointed. Therefore I am taking a much involved role compared to last time. Especially now with Nadya in primary one, I am now handling three primary school going children, its high time that I take a step back from work and focus on them. I have made it clear but knowing I am in K2 class. It will require every ounce of me to stay in line with what is needed. Currently clearing the n2 matters and closing 2015. I need to be focus and stay level headed as much as I can. I know what stress can do to me and how much it has make me break down but it also time that I toughen myself and remember to break away when needed.
"The past will stay in the past. No matter how tempting it seems to run away from the current situation, u were a reminder of what the past was. I believe there was a reason we crossed path and became what we were. But for now, you simply can't fit in my life. Let's leave it as it is. No matter how we try, we have to face the fact that I am happy the way I am no matter how it may seem to others. It was good to know but best left as it is."
Lots of love
Me
